Bobby (gaymukboi) wrote,
Bobby
gaymukboi

I dont know what it is...

Like...

I'm just not me right now.

Maybe it's the realization that in a day and a half I'll be 18...

Or the fact that you can never quite get exactly what your heart desires...

Or that maybe a "hetero-life-mate" is just a ploy to get closer to him...

Or could it be all of these things, and then some?

I wrote a thing for creative writing. A lot of people said they liked it a lot, but I didnt. It just wasnt to my standards. Well, everyone read it, but the person of whom it was written. I gave it to him today to read it...I felt he had to. He's been so confusing with everyone, and no one understands. Hell, I try so hard to understand, but I just cant. It hurts more every time I try to comprehend what he does, and why he does it.

He doesnt know better.

* * * * *

I dont know how I feel about Wednesday. Shouldnt I be excited? I TURN 18! IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! I should be relishing the fact that I can now legally get porn, cigs, lottery tickets, and other things...but why am I so down right now?

I dont even know...

Um...

bye now...
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