*I used to hate country music.
*I listen to it more frequently than I ever thought.
*I cant go anywhere without my cell phone.
*I am going into my first year of college, and I am scared shitless.
*I've had two boyfriends.
*I made a lot of mistakes with my first boyfriend.
*It just didnt work out with the second.
*I am terrified that I might never find someone to love me.
*I pretend not to care what people think of me, but I really do.
*Sometimes I do things just because.
*Sometimes I act ways so that others can feel better, which makes them feel smarter and call me "stupid" or "dumb."
*I hate being called "stupid" or "dumb" for the things I do.
*I just want to make other people happy.
*I never make myself happy.
*I love waking up early! I really do. I feel so accomplished when I get up early and get things done.
*I love bonfires. I love the smell, the heat, the night, the weather. It's all so majestic.
*I sing a lot. A LOT. Not as much as others, but too much sometimes.
*I'm always turning things into drums. I'm a percussionist, so I bang lots of things.
*At work I bang on everything in sight. It pisses my co-workers and customers off. :)
*I LOVE DANCING!
*Smoking... As much as I hate it, I do it. Call me a hypocrite, I will agree with you wholeheartedly...but...
*I'm not a very good person. I'm trying to change that, I really am.
*My parents have been married for 20 years and are madly in love with eachother.
*I am the oldest of five children.
*I am 18 years old.
*Emily was my first sister, and I've always loved her so much. We've always been closer than most brothers and sisters.
*Could it be because I'm gay?
*Nicolas was (technically)the last in the immediate family that I'm gay. We were all afraid of how he would react. Since I told him we've been closer than ever. *We used to fight everyday and beat eachother up.
*He bit my stomach once because I wouldnt give him MY coloring book.
*My grandpa could have died a few years ago...BUT DIDNT.
*I really dont like him. I wish death upon him every day.
*Back to the "I'm not a very good person" part.
*If you knew why I wished death upon him, you would too.
*I love the first day of school. I love the newness of it; the new books, notebooks, folders, pens, freshly-sharpened pencils... But it all loses it's novelty after the first day.
*I love school, I really do...I'm just afraid of what college will or wont bring me.
*I think I'm going bald. It all started after Cheaper by the Dozen. I had so much color sprayed into my hair that it suffocated my scalp and I started losing my hair. I've tried so many different ways of restoring, but my hair hasnt gained the old fullness it had.
*Part of my hypocracy is that I hate hypocrites. Oh, the irony.
*I don't always step back to look at things like I should.
*I have a GameCube and PS2 and N64...I used to play them all the time but I've grown out of that. I want to go back sometimes.
*There are a lot of things that make me cry.
*You probably don't know what most of those things are.
*I am German, Irish, Polish, French, and English.
*I love saying I'm part Irish.
*I ♥ Irish boys.
*I ♥ boys in general.
*I love accents.
*I want to tour the world.
*I want to backpack across Europe.
*I was raised Catholic, but I don't believe in most of the stuff about Catholicism, so I don't think I am anymore.
*I like a lot of 80's bands.
*I will forever love the 90's.
*I still listen to Britney Spears.
*SHE'S a stupid bitch...not her music. I like the music...not her.
*Her husband is gross...like...EEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWW...
*He reminds me of my first boyfriend...doesnt shower...smokes A LOT...wears the same clothes...looks greasy...yep! pretty much!
*I am an exact replica of my mother...except I have a penis.
*Today she told me she was a hermaphrodite...and I died laughting.
*She's not, but it was damned funny.
*I love musicals. Probably more than can be healthy.
*I love cleaning, I just hate cleaning my room.
*I LOVE DISNEY MOVIES!
*I've been a cashier at Wal*Mart for over a year.
*I want to be a CSM so badly, but I dont think it will happen.
*I find a lot of old people really cute. It's because they're so wise and learned I think.
*Or that they've been in love for so many many years.
*Or that they are so old, but still so hearty and youthful.
*That's how I want to be.
*I also find old people really annoying. Hypocrite, I know.
*I want piercings and tattoos.
*Well, I have 4 piercings, but I want more, maybe.
*I have 5 tattoos in mind right now.
*My parents dont like tattoos, but they watch Miami Ink with me. They always comment on how cool this one tattoo is, or how ugly this other is.
*I want a boy who I can cuddle with while we watch movies.
*When I start to like somebody, I like them for a reeeeeealy long time. Pathetic.
*I want badly to know how to play piano.
*I get pissed off a lot. You probably don't know that though.
*I'm very good at hiding when I am pissed or sad.
*I would love someone to give me flowers for no reason.
*I love giving or getting hugs.
*I give really good back massages.
*I never ask for one in return.
*Maybe if I did I'd be less stressed.
*I spend most of my omney on stupid crap.
*And not so stupid crap... I pledged money to ACS for the Relay for Life.
*The Relay was one of the most fulfilling experiences of my life.
*My grandmother had breast cancer. She's a survivor now, but there is always the risk.
*My mom had a mamogram and they found something that could have been a tumor. She had to go for another one. I cried so much because I was afraid she had cancer.
*I prayed that I could have cancer rather than her.
*I cried more when we found out it wasn't.
*Again, there's always the possibility.
*I had a cancer scare when I was in middle school.
*Because of that I had surgery...and discovered I only have one testicle.
*I went into a long depression after that, and tried to kill myself.
*It would have worked if it weren't for my friends.
*I like to use correct grammar. Although it always doesnt seem that way, it kills me when I dont. I feel dumber
*I love having lots of family members.
*My family is crazy. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
*Some of my favorite memories from my childhood are from family reunions or get-togethers.
*I love my family.
*They dont yet know I'm gay...
*How could they not?
*I could watch Jeff Dunham's 'Arguing With Myself' DVD every day and never get bored of it. SAH-NAH-TAH-AH-NAH!
* I stole some of this list from Sara who stole it from Amie. Love you girls! I edited some of their things to work for me.
*Mountain Dew is the sweet nectar of the Gods.
*RENT is my favorite musical of all time, I cry every time I hear it.
*I also cry every time I hear Wicked.
*I cry a lot...more than I should.
*I don't have a best friend...I have 12.
*They are (in alphabetical order) Amie, Bobby, Crystal, Emily, Jason, Kara, Katie Jo, Kim, Matt, Nicolas, Sara, Sean
*My friends mean everything to me and without them I would not be here...literally.
*I tried to kill myself in the 8th grade.
*I feel like life is just flying by me and I'm being left behind.
*But at the same time I'm trying to make the most of my life.
*"No other road, no other way...NO DAY BUT TODAY!"
*That is my outlook on life. It applies to absolutetly anything.
*Because I knew you, I have been changed for good.
*Forget, regret, or life is yours to miss!
*By the way, I'm Bobby.